If you follow my blog you know you can expect picture posts, picture posts, and more picture posts. Looking back at the beginning of this adventure, I noticed that I used to write more often. Why don’t I write anymore? I love to write. Writing used to be my primary method of expression, so why did I stop with the text posts?
It’s simple. When I started this blog, Lindy was pregnant and no one knew except for us and you guys. Time was abundant and life was exciting.
Now that I am a father, my time is not my own. It’s so much easier to throw up a few pictures and a cheesy one liner than it is to physically sit down and regurgitate my thoughts. Don’t get me wrong, photography can be a form of expression, but sometimes words capture what pictures don’t.
So, Ashtyn is asleep. I have a moment. And I decided to write.
Today was an amazing day with Ashtyn. We went to the mall, played at the playground, sat down together for lunch, and she even let me clean the house a bit. Aside from all of that, she was madly in love with me all day and I devoured every second of it.
Recently my schedule changed and I am with Ashtyn less than ever before and it shows. She has started to favor Lindy and I know kids bounce back and forth between parents, but she was always a daddy’s girl and I attributed that affection to the amount of time I spent with her. Let’s face it - most dads don’t spend as much time with their kids as I do and that’s just a perk of my career. A small benefit for risking my life on a nightly basis.
It has been pretty rough these last few months. I work the night shift full time as a cop, I run a photography business, and I am a full time dad. I don’t sleep for days at a time sometimes and I’ve gotten sick more often in the past year than I have my entire life! I feel unhealthy and tired every moment that I am awake.
Being a parent isn’t easy. It’s Rewarding. But not easy.
Today I caught up on life a bit. I cleaned the house while Lindy was at work and I finally decorated the exterior and interior of our home for Christmas! It just always feels like we’re playing catch up.
I’m really looking forward to Christmas. Last year things were so different at this time! Ashtyn was eating the wrapping paper off her Christmas gifts and this year she see things on TV and expresses interest in toys, movies, and more. She’s a little human being and she’s extremely independent and opinionated - I love it.
There wasn’t really a point to this post. I just wanted to write. Not for you. But for me :)
Meet Hunter, Billy, and Parker. They’ve been following my blog since Ashtyn was about 4 months old and they signed up for a Christmas Tree Lot Mini Session today!
They were super sweet and Parker was absolutely adorable.
You never know who from the tumblr world you are going to bump into.
Merry Christmas Hunter! It was a pleasure meeting your family.
I want one of those marriages where they’ve been married 20 years but are still crazy in love and still cuddle on the couch and kiss a lot. I want those kind of marriages that make my kids nauseous because how in love their parents are.
I have this. I will hold onto this.
Now and then:
It’s the same Santa!
In the picture on the right, Lindy is A SENIOR IN HIGH SCHOOL.
God damn we look like tired parents now :)
Ashtyn wasn’t fond of Santa, so we didn’t force the issue.